I am so embarrassed. Because I over did it today, I’ve ended up in horrific pain (again) and I’m too scared to sleep (again). Because I have no one to call for advice (I’ve worn everyone out), I’ve had to call Healthline. Twice.
First time they told me to rest, relax and if it gets worse call back. I decided to go to choir (in hindsight a silly decision), hung out with my flatmates (trying to be sociable), had a shower to warm up (too cold) then got ready for bed. For reasons I won’t go into, I was too scared and in too much pain to take a sleeping tablet. I knew I would have been fine, but some doctor today told me to be cautious.
Once again I’m in too much pain to make decisions for myself.
My biggest problems are the hip/leg pain (obviously), gastro issues (worse at night), insomnia caused by pain and then that horrible feeling of exhaustion. I’m struggling to breath but no one seems to be concerned. I am a singer.. I had a great set of lungs.
Jeeeze….. when the fuck will I learn how to cope properly with this godamn pain? I thought I was coping, then this “episode” happened.
Anyway… The ambulance folk were brilliant, quickly calmed me down and established the best thing to do is take a sleeping tablet and sleep. They helped me get to my bed and I’m almost feeling calm enough to sleep.
Thank god. I really cant handle going into hospital again!! If only the Healthline nurses were able to make that decision for me when I called.
I’ve learnt (the hard way) that you have to know how the medical system works… I’m still baffled, but I’m learning.
I need to face my fears (of the medical system and the hospital)… I feel like a fool. I’m still in way too much pain to sleep. Waiting for ice to numb my leg so I can take the tablet and sleep. I have been told to call the GP tomorrow. If I can’t cope I’ve been told to get a taxi to the emergency room.
I’m back down to hours…. I’ll wait until 9am before I call the GP. I can do another 24hrs of coping on Panadol.
Everyone is doing the best they can. It’s just too slow.