I’ve been dealing with escalating levels of pain and exhaustion for a while. I went to see my GP on Monday and we discussed where I’m at, instead of upping my medication she gave me a doctors certificate so I can rest for a week. It was such a relief to know this week I don’t have to push through the work day in pain, push through the noise and over stimulation of the office, push through the horrible bright lights that hurt my eyes. I came home from the doctors, planted myself on the couch and promptly fell asleep. I’m feeling shattered.
It’s lucky my GP gave me this week off as I had a bad reaction to a cortisone injection for the bursitis. I had the injection at 9am on Monday, by 11ish the local anaesthetic was starting to wear off and by late afternoon it hurt like heck and got progressively worse as the evening went by. My hip was very stiff and swollen, leading to very little sleep. There’s no way I would have coped at work this week. It’s calming down now but my physio has also given me instructions to rest this week. To my surprise she told me no swimming until Saturday.
It’s day 3 of my rest, I’ve slept a lot, the hip pain is easing off and I’m going to go down to one crutch from tomorrow. Hoping to be walking sans-crutches by the weekend. It’s been hard going back on crutches but it’s working, so worthwhile.
Finally, I’ve got formal notification I’m on the waiting list! The bad news is I’ve been told I’m a relatively low priority and will get my operation within 5 months. That’s September! But the good news, I was also sent a pre-anaesthesia assessment appointment for end April, so that gives me hope I’ll be seen to sooner. I was told you usually you get a surgery date 6-8weeks after your pre-anaesthesia appointment. I really hope so, I don’t particularly wish to wait another 5 months for surgery.
Feeling a bit better now things seem to be moving along.
Its been a few weeks so I figured its time for an update. I notice when things aren’t going great, sometimes the blog gets ignored. On the flip side, when things are going fantastically the blog also gets ignored while I go out enjoy life. Unfortunately, at the moment things aren’t going great. The pain levels are escalating, the central sensitisation has been a lot worse and I’m exhausted from battling the system.
Where are things right now? well….
- Work/life balance has swung out of control again, have been working long hours. The project ends this week (maybe next) so I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Its a bit of a race to the finish line though, so this week will be rough.
- The pain levels are high and are interfering with my sleeping again.
- I’m on thin ice, and need to rest a lot more.
- The bursitis is REALLY sore and always swollen, I can’t lie on my left side or my tummy and have to ice my thigh constantly.
- I’ve been trying to get a cortisone shot for the bursitis, its taken 4 weeks at least but I’m finally booked in next monday (phew).
- The hospital is mucking me around and it turns out I’m not actually on the waiting list for surgery yet, and assuming my paperwork goes through ok it is a 5 month wait. She said they are processing my paperwork now and I should get a letter in the next couple of weeks.
- I got offered a fantastic job but had to turn it down as it was conditional on surgery (when I applied the surgeon had just told me surgery would be end of April)
- I’ve been getting my right ankle treated for a sprain I did several weeks ago when dancing on one leg (as you do). It is apparent there is a lot of scar tissue due to years of multiple sprains (because it’s the opposite side to my sore hip it’s taken a thrashing). Because I am unable to rest it properly it’s not healing well and is rather swollen and sore this week.
- Because I’m now bearing more weight on my left leg (due to sore ankle) my hip is much worse than usual and the bursitis is getting worse.
- I’ve had to pull the crutches out for the first time in over a year. Am not quite able to bring myself to use them even though I probably should. But I have been told to take them to me when I go away for a choir trip this weekend (lots of standing).
- I’ve skipped a lot of choir practice due to pain and am also saying “no” to things.
- Have been slack re the physio therapy and swimming, mostly due to pain, tiredness and a lack of time.
- Am working with the Pain Clinic again, quite frequent appointments and quite intense treatments.
- The weather is getting colder which is not great for my pain levels and circulation.
Good news…. (there must be some)
- I started a new blog called Pretty Ordinary Things where I take a photo a day of something ordinary in an effort to help me be more present in the world and actively search for beauty in every day things. Its been working a treat, I feel my eyes are constantly scanning the environment, it pulls my thoughts away from my problems and is helping my photography. I’m really enjoying the project.
- We got restructured at work, so at least something is changing there. I’ve got a new manager and a new team, hopefully I can move my desk too. That with a new project will help refresh me at work. Just as well seeing as I had to turn down that amazing new job.
- I did a 3 day cram and passed my Six Sigma Green Belt Exam this week. I’ve just got to put together a portfolio and I’ll get certified. Six Sigma is a methodology for process improvement and data analysis.
- I’m going away this weekend, heading to Otaki to do a 2 day singing workshop with my choir. I can’t wait.
Fingers crossed things pick up soon, I think the next couple of weeks will rough but hopefully things will improve soon. I’ll feel A LOT better when I get a date for this surgery, I just need to know when it is going to happen so I can plan things and prepare. In the meantime, I’m looking forward to going away this weekend.